cover by Lily Allen is so catchy and I think it'd do me good to listen to it more often-- so catchy and happy!
day: movies, magazine, family, chat with osu cph online, some school planning, yoga&pilates
good day
goal? more yoga&pilates, more walks, more reading, more sunshine ... a lot of time to myself has been good :)
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Preoccupied
My mind's been rather preoccupied lately. I didn't really think about anything today apart from school, apartment, some reading, and some playtime. I think this is good because then I don't get moody but it also means it's hard for my brain to just switch to something else. Not really a conversing type of day for my brain...more like productive.
Sprayed down the poison ivy I could see and the general vicinity in the backyard with RoundUp...hopefully it clears up and I can spray whatever is left and then mow the area down and just get that place back into order.
Rewrote my statement of intent for Epidemiology department, talked with the somebody from the college of public health on the phone, edited the statement, and then sent it in. Worked on lists and organizing stuff with Angeline, read a lot of my library book, finished up apartment applications (the main part), got things organized and they are ready to be mailed!
I have so many lists! and I think we've pretty much figured out who's getting what and stuff...
Only thing is I move the day before the labor day fireworks at Newport which means I probably won't see the fireworks and will just be in Columbus for a few days because I don't know if it'd be worth the drive back and forth. Although, it could be a little lonely at times in Columbus because I'm pretty sure Angeline is stayin with her fam in the hotel for a few days. Unless I have company. We'll see.
meep.
Sprayed down the poison ivy I could see and the general vicinity in the backyard with RoundUp...hopefully it clears up and I can spray whatever is left and then mow the area down and just get that place back into order.
Rewrote my statement of intent for Epidemiology department, talked with the somebody from the college of public health on the phone, edited the statement, and then sent it in. Worked on lists and organizing stuff with Angeline, read a lot of my library book, finished up apartment applications (the main part), got things organized and they are ready to be mailed!
I have so many lists! and I think we've pretty much figured out who's getting what and stuff...
Only thing is I move the day before the labor day fireworks at Newport which means I probably won't see the fireworks and will just be in Columbus for a few days because I don't know if it'd be worth the drive back and forth. Although, it could be a little lonely at times in Columbus because I'm pretty sure Angeline is stayin with her fam in the hotel for a few days. Unless I have company. We'll see.
meep.
As much as I want
I can be as smart and as happy as I want.
i do want more of both.
Especially now. I'm gonna need that for the next two years at least. Time to tackle an area I don't feel that great at but it's not something I feel like I can't figure out either. Biostats. soon enough...
I have plenty of time to play with numbers when I'm in Columbus...right?
Anyway, I had a lot of fun playing with legos today. First my fam went to to do Errands. It was originally just gonna be Mom and me going to Jungle Jims but then Luke wanted to go out and do stuff. That is a good thing, he needs to get out more. Anyway, so then dad has to go. we dropped them off at wal-mart and then the two of us went to Jungle Jims. Yummy sample foods. Bought awesome food. I am SO HAPPY the Mangos are GOOOD this time.
Talked with Josh some then he came to my house to play with Luke, hang, and then have dinner. It was fun. Luke shrieked a lot and was relatively well behaved. Legos, Missiles, and some outdoor fun as Josh successfully (after many attempts) got a rope over a particular branch to eventually make a swing. Working progress.
I have about a month or so left of summer. I am glad but I am excited to move to Columbus.
i do want more of both.
Especially now. I'm gonna need that for the next two years at least. Time to tackle an area I don't feel that great at but it's not something I feel like I can't figure out either. Biostats. soon enough...
I have plenty of time to play with numbers when I'm in Columbus...right?
Anyway, I had a lot of fun playing with legos today. First my fam went to to do Errands. It was originally just gonna be Mom and me going to Jungle Jims but then Luke wanted to go out and do stuff. That is a good thing, he needs to get out more. Anyway, so then dad has to go. we dropped them off at wal-mart and then the two of us went to Jungle Jims. Yummy sample foods. Bought awesome food. I am SO HAPPY the Mangos are GOOOD this time.
Talked with Josh some then he came to my house to play with Luke, hang, and then have dinner. It was fun. Luke shrieked a lot and was relatively well behaved. Legos, Missiles, and some outdoor fun as Josh successfully (after many attempts) got a rope over a particular branch to eventually make a swing. Working progress.
I have about a month or so left of summer. I am glad but I am excited to move to Columbus.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Dear John
Thoughts that came up as I read this book. Some of it I feel like I forget and know that it's important in real life. They are such simple lessons but right now, they feel meaningful and it's nice to be reminded.
1) When I feel like I'm struggling, everybody else around me is struggling and to them, their struggles feel just as hard and their struggles are valid too.
2) Don't compare people. Don't expect the current person is necessarily like the past. You chose the current because you did NOT want the past.
3) With love you put the other's happiness before yours. Of course, this works better when this is mutual, lol.
4) You never forget. You may try to, but it's impossible. You may think about it less with time. It's hard not to fall back into the past and be nostalgic and try to stay connected especially during tough times.
1) When I feel like I'm struggling, everybody else around me is struggling and to them, their struggles feel just as hard and their struggles are valid too.
2) Don't compare people. Don't expect the current person is necessarily like the past. You chose the current because you did NOT want the past.
3) With love you put the other's happiness before yours. Of course, this works better when this is mutual, lol.
4) You never forget. You may try to, but it's impossible. You may think about it less with time. It's hard not to fall back into the past and be nostalgic and try to stay connected especially during tough times.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Budget
Made a budget today. Especially since the Quarry is so freakin' expensive I'm going to need to buckle down and budget like crazy.
Other will probably be basic things like toiletetries, toilet paper, stuff that comes up...basic stuff.
This isn't including the cost of furnishing the apartment from the ground up either. Who knows what else is going to come up. What if the car dies, what if my laptop breaks, what if I get really sick...I mean these are things I cannot anticipate.
I'm probably never eating out. Not going to spend money on stuff like concerts and stuff probably. I don't know how I can. I've already been spending too much lately, not very responsibly. I can't continue as if I just have these "unlimited" resources. I don't want to take out loans until I have to. My parents are generous enough to fund up to a certain amount but that'd get me through maybe a year and half. If my budget doesn't work or financial circumstances make it so my parents can no longer help, then more loans. I want to avoid it as much as I can. Signing up to live at such a place pretty much means I need to forgo the other stuff that I don't actually need. I don't know if I should get a part time job. If I do my weekends will probably be totally gone. So much for seeing anybody or going home if that happens. I don't want to take out loans just to live "comfortably" because I've been comfortable enough so far but I can't be spending money like this. Because I'm not going to expect anybody to help... I need to learn to just take care of myself because I need to learn and before long I won't have any help at all. Trying to budget this out makes me feel a little bit better but it still is stressful.
Although the calculations cannot be totally accurate because there are expenses I may not have in the summer or expenses I may have more of. I just don't know. Because my lease is a whole year I'm going to just live in Columbus for the summer and work full time (this is the plan). Although I think I may have to do a practicum and/or study abroad for a short period of time to fulfill requirements for school. I am hoping that working will make a significant difference and put off student loans and hopefully not use them at all. I mean if I accumulated 1k a month I could literally just barely survive summer on my own financially. I don't know if I could even do That.
I'm also a little anxious about some of the courses I'm going to be taking once I switch departments because I know 3 of them are goin to be very challenging for me because I don't care much for numbers. Although I would like to maybe have a small work study, I don't know if I could actually handle it. As and Bs are crucial because you aren't really even ALLOWED to get a C, its a requirement of the program, or of any masters/doctorate program really from what I can tell. Knowing that just sorta stresses me out regardin courses I know I won't be that great at.
Tuition: 11,310/year
Parking pass: 250/year
Books and Supplies: 1,600/year
Apartment (Rent, water, gas, electric, internet): 8,500/year
Food: 3,600/year
Gas/Fuel: 1,200/year or so
Other: 1200/year
TOTAL:$$$$27,660/year$$$$$
=2,305/month
So essentially for 9 months I will be around 24k. because school is only for 9 months my expenses are calculated differently.
Note to self: Ok, so lets say I just have tuition/books/supplies/parking paid right away (theoretically) at the beginning of the school year. That is 13,160. Ok so I have $10,872 of living and stuff during school (9months) so my budget of actual spending (including rent) is $$1,208/month. (TRY TO KEEP IT UNDER THIS) That is a number I can keep in mind when I am actually looking at my bank account in terms of cost for living.
Parking pass: 250/year
Books and Supplies: 1,600/year
Apartment (Rent, water, gas, electric, internet): 8,500/year
Food: 3,600/year
Gas/Fuel: 1,200/year or so
Other: 1200/year
TOTAL:$$$$27,660/year$$$$$
=2,305/month
So essentially for 9 months I will be around 24k. because school is only for 9 months my expenses are calculated differently.
Note to self: Ok, so lets say I just have tuition/books/supplies/parking paid right away (theoretically) at the beginning of the school year. That is 13,160. Ok so I have $10,872 of living and stuff during school (9months) so my budget of actual spending (including rent) is $$1,208/month. (TRY TO KEEP IT UNDER THIS) That is a number I can keep in mind when I am actually looking at my bank account in terms of cost for living.
Other will probably be basic things like toiletetries, toilet paper, stuff that comes up...basic stuff.
This isn't including the cost of furnishing the apartment from the ground up either. Who knows what else is going to come up. What if the car dies, what if my laptop breaks, what if I get really sick...I mean these are things I cannot anticipate.
I'm probably never eating out. Not going to spend money on stuff like concerts and stuff probably. I don't know how I can. I've already been spending too much lately, not very responsibly. I can't continue as if I just have these "unlimited" resources. I don't want to take out loans until I have to. My parents are generous enough to fund up to a certain amount but that'd get me through maybe a year and half. If my budget doesn't work or financial circumstances make it so my parents can no longer help, then more loans. I want to avoid it as much as I can. Signing up to live at such a place pretty much means I need to forgo the other stuff that I don't actually need. I don't know if I should get a part time job. If I do my weekends will probably be totally gone. So much for seeing anybody or going home if that happens. I don't want to take out loans just to live "comfortably" because I've been comfortable enough so far but I can't be spending money like this. Because I'm not going to expect anybody to help... I need to learn to just take care of myself because I need to learn and before long I won't have any help at all. Trying to budget this out makes me feel a little bit better but it still is stressful.
Although the calculations cannot be totally accurate because there are expenses I may not have in the summer or expenses I may have more of. I just don't know. Because my lease is a whole year I'm going to just live in Columbus for the summer and work full time (this is the plan). Although I think I may have to do a practicum and/or study abroad for a short period of time to fulfill requirements for school. I am hoping that working will make a significant difference and put off student loans and hopefully not use them at all. I mean if I accumulated 1k a month I could literally just barely survive summer on my own financially. I don't know if I could even do That.
I'm also a little anxious about some of the courses I'm going to be taking once I switch departments because I know 3 of them are goin to be very challenging for me because I don't care much for numbers. Although I would like to maybe have a small work study, I don't know if I could actually handle it. As and Bs are crucial because you aren't really even ALLOWED to get a C, its a requirement of the program, or of any masters/doctorate program really from what I can tell. Knowing that just sorta stresses me out regardin courses I know I won't be that great at.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Lessons from the Bachelorette
I realize it probably really silly to be writing about a tv show but it's been suuuch an intense episode this week.
Frank had to go home because there were feelings he had not dealt with concerning an ex girlfriend. In the back of his mind he would think about her and was always insecure about his relationship with the bachelorette whenever she was with other guys (Hey, it's part of the show). Right before Tahiti he went to Chicago to confront his feelings to get "closure." His ex girlfriend, in my opinion, comes off as a bitch. I don't think she'll take him back, I just think she didn't want him with somebody else that was way cooler than her. But, whatever, Good thing Frank is gone. What a jerk. Does closure even exist? I don't know. But if you have reservations it's probably NOT a good idea to hide them, very unfair to whoever you're with. A lot to think about.
When you choose somebody it doesn't necessarily mean it's right because they have to choose you too. It's a two way street in that way. People come and go and we shouldn't think too much about the past because there is probably a reason they aren't in the present and won't be in the future. I'd say that people break up for a reason. Relationships, romantic or not, generally end for a reason. Life happens.
Frank had to go home because there were feelings he had not dealt with concerning an ex girlfriend. In the back of his mind he would think about her and was always insecure about his relationship with the bachelorette whenever she was with other guys (Hey, it's part of the show). Right before Tahiti he went to Chicago to confront his feelings to get "closure." His ex girlfriend, in my opinion, comes off as a bitch. I don't think she'll take him back, I just think she didn't want him with somebody else that was way cooler than her. But, whatever, Good thing Frank is gone. What a jerk. Does closure even exist? I don't know. But if you have reservations it's probably NOT a good idea to hide them, very unfair to whoever you're with. A lot to think about.
When you choose somebody it doesn't necessarily mean it's right because they have to choose you too. It's a two way street in that way. People come and go and we shouldn't think too much about the past because there is probably a reason they aren't in the present and won't be in the future. I'd say that people break up for a reason. Relationships, romantic or not, generally end for a reason. Life happens.
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