Today has been good/interesting so far and I'm hoping it continues.
1) witnessed pillow fight flash mob at the seal/hub at 12:40pm
2) got a text that a zoo dept boat sunk, texted janelle, she called me back, i missed it, asked nicole and found out it really was our pontoon boat that sank. Eventually Janelle called me again and I picked up while I was at work. Pranksters probably sunk it last night or yesterday morning because it is the only boat out there at Acton lake and they took off the seats and THEN sunk it. It was at least a foot under water and was held up by the chain. It is full of mud and they spent all day cleaning and draining. The motor for the pontoon boat is from the DNR boat and that died...so we currently dont have a good motor...and not only was sampling not done today but samping needs to be done Wednesday. Good luck, boat!
I like food. I love sunshine. I am hoping for a good rest of the day of yoga, homework, gossip girl, and applications! (note to self: be motivated, stay awake, and get stuff done!)
Monday, October 26, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Drained but hopeful
I'm not totally sure why but the past week or so I've felt a little more tired than usual. I don't feel like I'm particularly busy or particularly stressed...or particularly antsy/restless. If anything, I guess I feel a little stressed and insecure. I keep on having nightmares. Not like super scary monster nightmares, but unpleasant personal situations and it's hard to get them out of my head but I feel like they aren't a big deal yet I can't seem to ignore them. But, they're also my own issues and I don't want to be a bother. It's like whenever I am happy I remember that things don't last forever and I'm not sure if I'm up to the challenge of big changes. I'm also on edge more often and I try not to let my temper get to me because the stupidest things will get on my nerves and then I can't handle it. Maybe other things have been accumulating and using the small details just act as triggers and excuses. That makes sense to me at least.
I am not ready to grow up, I'm not ready to leave, I'm not ready to get ready to leave, and I'm not ready to figure out how to do all of that. But, there's no choice, but I'm sure there are better ways for me to handle it. I feel like I'm flailing and trying to hold on to things when I know I probably shouldn't and need to just take the changes slow.
There are things about myself I'd like to change. I don't exactly like what I see lately. I don't like the insecurity, I don't like feeling dull, and I don't like feeling insignificant.
I just don't feel like I have all that much to say that is of much importance. Makes me just want to be quiet.
Change is necessary...but what?
Possibilities:
1) have more practical expectations...not that I think I'm impractical, but maybe I am because I don't like feeling disappointed
2) get more motivated about my applications because I need to get that done
3) sleep more/sleep less
4) write here more, I seem to be calmer afterward having put my thoughts somewhere, however vague as they may be...but, at least I generally know what I'm talking about.
5) write down my dreams
6) exercise more...although I think I can do that bc of this pass...it's an incentive for me to go to not waste money
7) spend less
8) stop fretting about what I'm doing and what people think
9) stop over analyzing and being skeptical
I'm just tired and don't know what to do. Maybe I should go to sleep. I don't think I'm in the mood to actually work on applications...that just means tomorrow will be busier. Oh Goody.
I am not ready to grow up, I'm not ready to leave, I'm not ready to get ready to leave, and I'm not ready to figure out how to do all of that. But, there's no choice, but I'm sure there are better ways for me to handle it. I feel like I'm flailing and trying to hold on to things when I know I probably shouldn't and need to just take the changes slow.
There are things about myself I'd like to change. I don't exactly like what I see lately. I don't like the insecurity, I don't like feeling dull, and I don't like feeling insignificant.
I just don't feel like I have all that much to say that is of much importance. Makes me just want to be quiet.
Change is necessary...but what?
Possibilities:
1) have more practical expectations...not that I think I'm impractical, but maybe I am because I don't like feeling disappointed
2) get more motivated about my applications because I need to get that done
3) sleep more/sleep less
4) write here more, I seem to be calmer afterward having put my thoughts somewhere, however vague as they may be...but, at least I generally know what I'm talking about.
5) write down my dreams
6) exercise more...although I think I can do that bc of this pass...it's an incentive for me to go to not waste money
7) spend less
8) stop fretting about what I'm doing and what people think
9) stop over analyzing and being skeptical
I'm just tired and don't know what to do. Maybe I should go to sleep. I don't think I'm in the mood to actually work on applications...that just means tomorrow will be busier. Oh Goody.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Half way
Before long first semester will be over. Before long my applications will be done!
Registration went smoothly for the first time EVER, I got everything I needed at the times I wanted! it was really close because for some classes they were filled up right when I finished....so relieved!!!
It's been pretty chill lately. We didn't go camping/backpacking for fall break cus it was Luke's birthday which was relatively fun except he was moody. But, he likes his new toys, and Luke likes seeing Josh and I. Hmm...yeah, it was chill and I got homework done. Went to Pumpkin festival with Josh and his fam, first corn maze (not that great..maybe try a diff one?), and FINALLY saw (500) days of summer which was AWESOME! I love the soundtrack and I have put it on my list of music to get.
So, that jazz cd I ordered for class...got lost in the mail? got a refund and had to use my emergency backup aka Iori's dad's collection. Drove Iori to his house to acquire 2 out of like 3000 jazz CDs. They're really good! I'm excited.
Mmmm...Jessanne has persuaded me to do cafe world on facebook and after some money wasted I am getting the hang of it! hahaha...
Errrm...Oh, my dorm just e-mailed us that the water pipe has a leak downstairs so we are to limit water usage and are to not shower until it is fixed. They have some emergency crew down there workin on it right now. I think it is hilarious and I would like to take a shower in the morning, please and thank you.
I feel so random and am procrastinating...and need to try to find time to pick up my dry cleaning tomorrow (why is that so expensive? I need to NOT buy stuff that needs to be dry cleaned unless the outfit is really expensive because then it'd be worth it...then again, I really like these two outfits a lot so I guess it's not just cost but worth to me.)
OK, back to working on my applications! personal statement...you know.
Registration went smoothly for the first time EVER, I got everything I needed at the times I wanted! it was really close because for some classes they were filled up right when I finished....so relieved!!!
It's been pretty chill lately. We didn't go camping/backpacking for fall break cus it was Luke's birthday which was relatively fun except he was moody. But, he likes his new toys, and Luke likes seeing Josh and I. Hmm...yeah, it was chill and I got homework done. Went to Pumpkin festival with Josh and his fam, first corn maze (not that great..maybe try a diff one?), and FINALLY saw (500) days of summer which was AWESOME! I love the soundtrack and I have put it on my list of music to get.
So, that jazz cd I ordered for class...got lost in the mail? got a refund and had to use my emergency backup aka Iori's dad's collection. Drove Iori to his house to acquire 2 out of like 3000 jazz CDs. They're really good! I'm excited.
Mmmm...Jessanne has persuaded me to do cafe world on facebook and after some money wasted I am getting the hang of it! hahaha...
Errrm...Oh, my dorm just e-mailed us that the water pipe has a leak downstairs so we are to limit water usage and are to not shower until it is fixed. They have some emergency crew down there workin on it right now. I think it is hilarious and I would like to take a shower in the morning, please and thank you.
I feel so random and am procrastinating...and need to try to find time to pick up my dry cleaning tomorrow (why is that so expensive? I need to NOT buy stuff that needs to be dry cleaned unless the outfit is really expensive because then it'd be worth it...then again, I really like these two outfits a lot so I guess it's not just cost but worth to me.)
OK, back to working on my applications! personal statement...you know.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Epic night
Summing up Tuesday and Wednesday:
Tuesday:
SLEEP!
Tuesday:
- 8:30pm: Journey to C-Bus for TIESTO! (Jennie, Sin, Bang, Josh and I to see Tiesto and Vicki to see Casper) The back seat was cramped but cozy! and Jennie is music ADD.
- We discussed hot guys, the guys joined in on this conversation
- Arrive at like...10:30pm? Wait in line for an hour with friends of Sin and Bang which was a ton of fun! this Jake guy fooled us all with an awesome Irish accent.
- BoMA is AWESOME! it's so beautiful inside and it was crazy!
- TIESTO IS AMAZING
- Josh broke up a fight (some guy was tryin to punch this girl....a def no no)
- took lotsa pix but mostly a lot of videos!
- TON OF FUN :) :) :)! Highlight of my semester! want to go to moreeee!!!
- Josh was pretty upset that we missed Crystal Method though...but none of us knew he was playing...but we would've gone really early had we known.
- left at 3am, picked up Vicki, stopped at a gas station...I stayed awake the whole way
- back at 5am
- found the door mirror on the floor yet Carrie never woke up to that? amazing
- went to bed at 530am
- did not make it to work on time, sorta got in trouble? sorta...although I'm not the only one I think...we have two students that are like MIA...i was just late, not MIA and was busy while Janelle was gone bc I had to filter and prep sampling so I didn't get to do my own work much
- worked later
- ate food and did homework the rest of the time
- got candy for opening our door from the res hall advisor...then we closed the door...this building is so awkward...
- Josh brought me dark chocolate as a present/surprise! yayy <3
- Carrie and I chitchatted a lot...we distracted each other from work, twas fun.
- talked to Justine Precepa and Jessanne on fbchat
- Now I'm going to bed!
SLEEP!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Good
Life is good.
I feel so chill lately. I haven't been super stressed in some time now! I am very excited. I mean there are a few things I get concerned about occasionally, but I am doing very well! So far school is good, life is good, family and friends are good...just need to try to get this whole grad school thing figured out and done! So far that is the only remotely stressful thing I think. That and maybe money. But, that's not a big deal right now. I just need to get myself motivated to work and save.
Oh, and I signed up for an academic year-long pass for group classes at the rec! pilates/yoga/zumba = much fun :). Although right now my right leg is killin me and it feels like its burning...I guess I can't do much exercise for a while because sometimes I get gimpy...though so far just at night. I hope I am better tomorrow!
This semester has gone by so quickly so far and in a way that is awesome but at the same time that means I'm just getting closer to growing up and being off on my own! But, for now, I'm just going to dwell on how well life is going :). I don't feel like writing more, my leg hurts. I want sleep. night loves.
I feel so chill lately. I haven't been super stressed in some time now! I am very excited. I mean there are a few things I get concerned about occasionally, but I am doing very well! So far school is good, life is good, family and friends are good...just need to try to get this whole grad school thing figured out and done! So far that is the only remotely stressful thing I think. That and maybe money. But, that's not a big deal right now. I just need to get myself motivated to work and save.
Oh, and I signed up for an academic year-long pass for group classes at the rec! pilates/yoga/zumba = much fun :). Although right now my right leg is killin me and it feels like its burning...I guess I can't do much exercise for a while because sometimes I get gimpy...though so far just at night. I hope I am better tomorrow!
This semester has gone by so quickly so far and in a way that is awesome but at the same time that means I'm just getting closer to growing up and being off on my own! But, for now, I'm just going to dwell on how well life is going :). I don't feel like writing more, my leg hurts. I want sleep. night loves.
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