Blessed despite the stress

Today has been an interesting day.

A lot of ups and downs.

Had a lot of back and forth phone conversations with the recruiter at the job I want. Heh, we've talked so many times by now it just seems normal, hahahaha.

Almost had to drive back there again to speak with a VP.

I am really hoping for a good offer and I think one is coming within a week... I really hope that it does.

Manager was a little moody today so that was interesting. I think the environment is starting to get tedious/overwhelming.

So tired/stressed/confused today that I nearly passed out in a professor's (second reader) office and a different professor had to bring me water and wet towel while i sat in a daze trying to make myself eat the candy to bring up my sugar levels. It was embarrassing. But they are so sweet. By the time I got to my advisor she looked at me all concerned and tried to make me go home but I insisted we get stuff done cus I don't know when I'll have time. Thankfully it was a great meeting, we got a lot done, a lot of progress, i can write soon and we bonded... good thing too because she is leaving the country this weekend and won't be back til May 16... so essentially... she'll still be jet lagged when I present. fun.

so tired. Been laying in bed since then pretty much.

So many emotions.

But, I have a great support system and life is good...i just need to pull myself together and not worry myself sick. Which....is pretty much what happened.

I still want the fiat.

I want a job.

I want a vacation. (my adviser did say I should visit her in Sweden sometime, maybe i will... i don't know if she is being serious but she certainly could be...)

P.S. discovered a steep late fee on paying this quarter's tuition. I was so busy/preoccupied I forgot I technically have a "class" aka my culminating/thesis. Hopefully being so busy/preoccupied literally pays off for these mistakes w a real job. SOON. I may barely make it thru summer. NEED JOB.