Crazy

This whole end of the year thing is literally driving me crazy.

There's a fork in the road. Now what?

✔Class

✔Work out

✔Eat some

✔Clean floor

✔Give GRE book away to Eva

✔Give sweater, and 3 pairs of shoes, shirt, etc. away to Sharefest box

✔Organize some stuff in closet

I need to take better care of myself.

I have yet to:
STUDY a lot, pack? hot tub? There is yet a dvd to watch before it is due Monday. So sometime before then...maybe even more exercise :)

Trying to keep myself together. Trying to take care of myself :)

Note to self: learn to love what is good for you and be good to those you love

Sunshine

I'm so glad that it is sunny today even if it makes my glasses uncomfortable.
It's a pretty full day but I am enjoying my temporary off time. After lunch I took a break and then went to the rec. I really need to exercise more. Really. Bumped into John Bercaw there, he had just finished working out and was watching tv. Was surprised.

I keep on feeling good, then bad, then good, then bad. Back and forth. Gonna try to be happy :)

New Sight

So these glasses ... I found the exact ones online now that...I have them on my face! Bebe Peekaboo eyeglasses. Actually I did not know there was zebra on the inside until today, I must have forgot. But, much better than leopard! They are pretty nice and fit well. The prescription is a lot stronger than the old glasses but it was due. It does make me a tad dizzy for now, mostly at like end of room distance...I can see really far without being dizzy and like a book...but a few meters is goin to take some adjustments.

I really didn't know I was This blind, hah. Maybe when I'm like 35 I'll get Lasik. That is assuming I make money. ;) But Dang, these glasses are expensive.... anti glare and polycarbonate. They better last. I will wear contacts less. The guy says he can order from the distributer the old focus night and day contacts I like...the new ones accumulate too much protein that doesn't come off or something somehow. He seems to understand a lot as he used to work for Bausch and Lomb and such...I really like that place, even if everything is $$$.

I got there early for my eye appointment and left at 10:30 from uptown. Class was pretty good. Probably her first efficient/clear/best lecture ever. Katia's class was actually enjoyable today. I don't know if it is because I was in a good mood or because it's about HER research. I bet it is both...it went by really fast and she talked really fast.

The zoo lab exam today...was harder than expected. Very detailed and specific. Yeah, even if I studied more it wouldn't have helped. Whatever, over it. Jennie then took me uptown to get my glasses.

I really like them even if they make me a tad dizzy. They make me look professional? and grown up/smart. It makes me feel more put together b/c I could really use that right now.

To be productive or not? Din with Jen in an hour, then I should probably work on homework/study. Sigh. A lot of things I SHOULD do but I am enjoying my day...so we'll see...literally ;)

concentration

is very much lacking.

It's been a pretty good day. Really did NOT enjoy waking up this morning. took my GREEN notes to class because I ran out of printer paper. Went to work for a short while...thought my phone died there but Janelle helped me clean it so *whew* it is alive!

Little lunch. Lay down for a bit. Jennie then came over and we went over our notes/slides and such to study for our lab final in the morning. Showered. Dinner at La Mia Cucina w Josh. It was delicious! I want more dessert. I need to resist! aka not gain more weight.

I think the fever may have passed for now. Bieber fever I mean. We will see.

Umm...I can't seem to concentrate on anything. I look at my lab notes and just go...ugh...so many words and I condensed it as much as I could. I am not looking forward to my finals in general. At least once they're over they're over and I can just ... not think about it again!

So I go in to get an eye exam in the morning before class and lab exam. Hopefully they have my prescription in inventory so I can get my glasses tomorrow. I am pretty excited.

They look A Lot like this EXCEPT the "bling" b (for "bebe") is Silver and there is no weird animal print stuff. Jennie likes it and so does the guy at the store who seems very knowledgeable. Jennie and I have similar tastes so at least I know it is not a bad choice. It looked good. I have not seen it in a week so I hope it still looks good.

Less than two weeks left.

of undergrad.

Today's been alright. Super productive but distracted a lot at the same time. Errands at walmart with Jocelyn...and I finished my term paper...well, pretty much anyway. I've just got to do some editing and such. I finished my weekly seminar writing assignment (LAST ONE!)....read the article for lab meeting tomorrow...and glanced over the material for the zoo lab final that is Tuesday...went to Benton twice to deliver food to Josh while he worked on some group project. It was a nice study break even though I was frustrated trying to find the room the first time around.

AND Desperate Housewives was insane! Jocelyn and I Skyped during the show and we were both just blown away by the episode. Can't wait for next week!

Now I am pretty much done for the evening. I'm sort of tired. I haven't finished homework this early in a LONG time. I suppose if I wanted to overachieve I could start studying for my 4 finals...but, I am sort of tired and am just a little anxious. Still feeling a little hesitant and insecure but that is normal enough. Last weekend. over. wha? I'm not gonna study. I want to revel in some free time of doing nothing. I don't know if I want to let myself think because I want to continue having a pretty good day.

My back/neck sorta hurts/is sore. I should go deal with that now.

Lisa is right, saturday nights are better

Woke up and had Bob Evans. YUM. I was so hungry and ate everything so fast. Went to Josh's to make sure he was doing ok from Friday night. Didn't seem too hungover at all (unlike Jennie who was quite sick for a while). Went uptown and got stuff with Jocelyn. Brought food to Josh. Josh had me drive his car and it went horribly. I was still a little groggy/sleep deprived and the yelling confused me too. Maybe I just can't drive? I am confused. Went to hang out with Jennie. Josh came over after he toured an apartment.

We just chilled, then went to Kroger, came back and Jennie made us a delicious dinner. Then we chilled and then went to Walmart. Walmart was fun, I am surprised nobody kicked us out for sword fighting, biking, hoolahooping, footballing...very fun. After a long time we eventually bought Clue. Nobody else had played clue before and I havent played for a while. It was an awesome game. We didn't use much of a strategy for a while and we were all just getting so into it. Eventually josh won. I was so close if only I had made an accusation right before him. Poor Jocelyn got locked out of like every room or didn't roll enough to move anywhere good. Josh and I ended up with a headache from that game. then we had pie. watched part of hot tub time machine. then went for a walk n left.

It was a good saturday. I am going to miss these kind of saturdays...thanks, Graduation. I am going to miss people.

Last "free" weekend: The Good, Bad and Ugly

Highlights:
Dinner and movie with Jennifer (Back up plan), Tonic with Stephanie and Edwina (Strawberry Bellini!), Pre-Game shots at Jennie's (Mango Absolut), 45 East, Seeing my Lisa <3

Not so good parts: Feeling rejected and unattractive, Frustration

Good part again:
Thanks to my friends for understanding and trying to make things more clear.

Jennie's right, I am a strong person and I shouldn't let anybody let me feel down about myself, intentional or not. I should not have reacted the way I had by just walking out of the car without as much as a goodbye but at that point I was just too frustrated to say anything at all. I am hoping that when people care they try to understand but I suppose if not then there is only so much I can do about it.

I am awake. I have slept like 3-4 hours. Jocelyn, Jennie, and Tri are still asleep. I was told to wake everybody up when I woke up...yeah, not going to do that because nobody wants 4 hours of sleep. I just can't seem to fall asleep again. I'm tired and anxious.

I am getting hungry. I wish people were awake here.