Communism

...many things in life are like Communism....they sound good on paper but make no practical sense...

Inverse Stepford Wives? Yes...

Ah, the truth eventually reveals itself, but oh my, sometimes it just sucks. This whole school year? how the hell do I get myself into such things? Hey, it could have been much worse. Looking back over the year it's still been pretty good. Nothing particularly bad has happened, just strange. I should've seen it coming and I'm sort of pissed that I wasn't more aware of my surroundings. I really should sleep more and notice more. Regardless, it's still been fun and I've learned a lot. I don't think I'm that upset...just contemplative. I'm not mad, just really curious, especially about myself. I actually feel pretty calm, just confused. I don't find myself to be that emotional of a person, I'm too practical and logical for that but I am human and I am very much alive in more than one sense of the word. Now what? just keep living...The next 6 weeks are going to be very busy and there is a long list of things I have yet to do/finish/figure out. No matter what, I'm not going to let myself get behind with life, nothing is worth That.

What a week. So much has happened...and all while I've been sick...great. Sleep deprived, ill, tired, happy, confused, spazzy, etc. All I can do is laugh at this point...and cough of course, though that, I can't even avoid very well. No matter how hard I could try, I can't be everywhere, do everything, or be everything all at once. I'm only human, but I try to be a good human at least.

Sometimes I wonder why I chose this major...I'm really not particularly good at it...but hey, if it gets me the career I want...

I am pretty happy though. I have the best friends ever that watch out for me. Life, I am looking you straight in the face. Bring it on.

P.S.
Zack, get into contact with Laura, she keeps asking me about how you are doing rather than figuring that out herself.