Lots scheduled for the next week or so

Today's just one of those days where I feel blah and bland.

But, now that it's over I'm feeling pretty content even though I felt pretty crappy for a bit. I feel like I didn't get anything done all day thanks to watching Luke and my lack of motivation lately. Josh came over to watch Memphis Belle (which is a good movie) then Luke went nutso and got really annoying. It's just irritating...the fits that he throws and I feel like I'm the only one really disciplining him. That is not my job. But I do it because I don't care enough about his feelings. Not that I don't love my brother, but it gets to a point that I don't care. This family/house needs some changes. I get so tired of feeling like crap so often. I'm tired of being tired. I don't even talk at home anymore and just don't want to say anything. I am looking forward to getting out, even though I'll still be back every week now...sigh. I love Luke but OMG. chill. out.

Having Josh around made me feel a little better, though he shouldn't have to put up with all of this.

This is just a mess. I used to have pretty good relationships with my parents. That is pretty much shot for now. I don't even know where to begin to start explaining the issues. I mean they aren't the kind you find of dysfunctional families on TV and stuff...nothing THAT crazy. But, still...this is just stupid.

Oh goody...I get to go to the airport 3 times in one week. GOODY.

Sunday (recap): dad + 3 to airport...and hopefully something fun at some point.
Monday: work...hopefully pack...(Note to self: WHEN AM I EVER STUDYING?!)
Tuesday: ERC cleaning
Wednesday: Work and hopefully meet Carrie and figure out what needs to be moved
Thursday: Work. Summer Reading meeting. Probably move some stuff in.
Friday: Convocation and Discussion Leading. Get dad and them from airport...then Matt Nathanson Concert.
Saturday: Move in. Airport to get strangers as a favor to my mom's friend. Great. I'm supposedly getting paid for this...at least I get paid for ONE of my airport trips... saturday night=Brit and Jenni's birthday party/camp out thing...
Sunday: school shopping

I want to figure out when I'm getting stuff done that I want to get done. i want motivation. I want to care.