Eclipse

it has been a better day. I eventually was able to eat more and feel less woozy lol. chilled at feis... mostly laid down while twilight was in background. then went home to get my laptop to lend Josh for a few days because his laptop charger died and he has online physics homework. sigh haha. I was useful there until midnight showing of eclipse ! by then I was feelin more lively... ing the crowd... anyway good movie.

so much for gettin much sleep. eye appt in morning! good thing my iPod touch has Internet and stuff...

eh maybe I'm too modern...


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Beware of Icecream.

After work I went uptown to meet up with Josh and he got us icecream.  I got this peach shortcake icecream thing.  Well, the guy didn't know what one was (it was on this picture advertised there) and it tasted alright although the peaches tasted sorta fake to me (it's from a can, didn't expect much) but it tasted good otherwise.  The rest of the night was good.

Woke up this morning at 8am and felt awful, I felt chills, dizzy and had to go to the bathroom a few times. I got food poisoning?  I haven't eaten since last night (icecream) and its now 1pm. I had dinner before work but it was leftovers from lunch that had been in the fridge so it should've been fine and I've never had a problem with food at home ever and I don't even know the last time i got food poisoning to begin with.  I doubt it's the pretzels at work too.  So closest thing I can think of is the canned peaches?

I mean today is not going to deter me from UDF.

New

New fall schedule.  This way my classes are closer together and I'm not stranded on campus for nearly as long!

PUBHBIO 701 - TuTh 8:30AM - 10:18AM 
PUBHEPI 710 - MoWe 10:30AM - 12:18PM 
PUBHHBP 720 - MoWe 1:30PM - 3:18PM
PUBHHBP 820 - TuTh 1:30PM - 3:18PM

I also have a prospective roomie and we have been exchanging e-mails.  We'll see how all this goes because really? having a roomie would be a lot less expensive.

First attempt for new home

Was unsuccessful but quite an experience anyway.

Drove to Columbus and I found it to be a really nice drive :).  Got there at around 12:30pm, called the guy to see his apartment.  Eh, it's close to campus and all, and it's clean enough...but didn't like it.  Then dad and I walked to South Gateway to get lunch...then wandered around by foot, looked at buildings where I'll have class, medical center, etc.  Then we wanted to get back...and wandered around lost on the bad parts...but we then found that it was an easy walking distance from where that apartment was and I wasn't too pleased with that even if the apartment is in a tolerable location.  Drove around to see the other apartments on the outside cus people either don't answer my phone calls/e-mails or are out of town.  Eh, the two were not great, one was promising but the traffic was horrendous.  CARS EVERYWHERE. On roads that have two lanes (one going each direction)...it would be a normal-minimal width...BUT, with cars parked on both sides THE WHOLE WAY. I don't know how I went through, everytime I saw a car we'd have to coordinate how to pass.

Then there's the people who like to cut me off.

Then there's the mass amounts of hippy pedestrians with flowers in their hair and bathing suits that block the intersection....

I later find out that it's comfest.

Explains a lot.

Found a lot of new apartments to look at, large complexes, pricier, and a commute. but safer. def safer.

Apartments that are "sketch" in Oxford are normal anywhere near OSU Campus as far as I can tell. ugh. Maybe I'm sheltered, or maybe I just like peace.

What next? we'll see.

totoro

my brother is so cute. this was from watching bolt with me yesterday :)

Luke with Totoro



hm I should probably get up soon to shower n get ready to go to Columbus to see apts! hopefully it us successful but if not we can at least explore the vicinity!

Looking forward to a step towards Independence

I am looking forward to living by myself right now.  Maybe when it comes I'll get lonely but I plan on keeping myself preoccupied.  Class usually results in a lot of homework, and because there isn't going to be dining halls every day I will have to cook which will take up time, and then cleaning because I don't like seeing dirty dishes, or dirty things in general.  And I do like being a vegetable on occasion and watching hulu or a movie.  I think time will go by quick enough and I hope to not be that lonely.  I don't think it'll be bad making friends and I will have weekends to hopefully have fun!

Living by myself has a lot of perks:
1) not having to deal with crying little boy a lot...and the screaming...like right now...
2) not being with my parents and all the annoying things that come with that
3) my own space
4) organized space because I don't bother unpacking much right now
5) new bed!
6) quiet
7) hopefully less stressed out because I'll finally have more time to myself to think and not be overwhelmed when things come up
8) dance around and not be bothered with anybody thinking I'm weird
9) experiment and not end up being embarrassed if it is a total fail
10) I might as well have a 10th...um...just something new in general!

But I have to make sure I am as prepared as I can be.  I am trying to learn how to save money.  I am making lists of things I will need to get, things I will need to do, things I should learn how to do, and things I want to do.  I have to be prepared and motivate myself to go out there, meet people, work hard, and keep my head screwed on right and not to get too overwhelmed and just take it a little at a time as it comes.  I'm not a real grown up yet but I am working to be one! I am hopeful.

I'd be into the World Cup too...

If I got paid and got a bunch of stuff and got free housing for a month! Although it would help if I knew more about soccer and the world cup to begin with.  I like watching it and all but I never played on a team or anything and don't follow much soccer.  This is still pretty funny and cool though.  Jealous of this Aussie!

http://g.sports.yahoo.com/soccer/world-cup/blog/dirty-tackle/post/Australian-man-living-inside-giant-Jabulani-ball?urn=sow,251020

End of Ponds

Arrived to work at around 7:40am, headed out to the ERC by 8am. It was hot. It was sunny. It was humid. The black tarp of the ponds were Hot. I thought I was going to fall to the bottom a few times because it's pretty steep and you're standing on the sides.  If the places you step your feet on aren't spotless from the pressure washer...you slip real quick.  That pressure washer is a lot stronger than I remember...I thought it was going to knock me down. haha. That, and tools and I don't get along when it deals with gross, disgusting, dead-fish, and algae ridden crap...I was at first given a dull, rusty knife and told to cut twist ties and stuff...good thing after a couple tries I remembered Mia had a swiss army knife...even then, the hot sun made me feel a little dizzy when surrounded by just black tarp...and the smell? awful.  Probably comparable to a sewer. I never want to do that again...and by the looks of it, I don't have to ever do it again! yay...either I'm a whimp or the ponds are evil because it kicked my butt today.  I am so tired and sore.

Went to the contacts fitting apt today, I think I'm going to like these new contacts (trial currently) but I still have a few old ones left that'd last a while...what to do with them? I guess I'll figure it out.

i'm sore.

Soleil 100 Days

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Yeah, I'm mostly trying to win that car :P

Hobbies

Josh has reminded me that I have no current hobbies. I used to have a lot of hobbies but they're not useful/practical...I can make things...and then do what with them? I would never wear a scarf or hat I make...they go to my stuffed animals. I don't feel like making stuffed animals, jewelry, etc.  I am too picky.  So, I've come up with some...seeing as apparently volunteering is NOT a hobby?

Jogging/Yoga
Painting
Photography/Wall Art
Scrapbooking
Projects w Luke! I'm thinking finger painting stuff to put up, crafts, colored bubble art, etc.

Working on more.  Starting in August I will be unemployed. And half unemployed before that.

I still need to get my butt moving in finding a place to live in Columbus and figuring out the financial situation.  The school is slow at getting back to me. AH!

Budget

I really need to learn how to handle money better, how to make money better, and all sorts of other things.  I need to learn how to be a grown up.

how much more

can i take this?

Happy 10th Birthday to Amy!

Woke up, went to work, then went uptown.  Bought a card and a gift for Amy's birthday and had lunch with Josh at Phan Shin.  The food's OK. I wasn't super hungry though. Beautiful day.  Then wandered for a little bit before Fei, Amy, and Amy's friend showed up so we could watch Toy Story 3.  we LOVED the movie.  The 3 of them cried.  Understandable, it was a very meaningful movie. I am glad it got like a 100% on rottentomatoes! totally worth it. It made me happy.  Then we just hung out at Fei's, played games, ate dinner, random people came over, had cake, then I came home.

I am slowly teaching Luke math.  I realize it is really early but he wanted money so I told him if he cleaned the room and put his toys away (he dumped them EVERYWHERE) he'd get 5 monies (aka 5 pennies).  Before long he'll be upgraded to bigger coins and learn to trade coins (value of diff coins).  We played heads/tails for a while, counted coins, sort of added/subtracted.  He had a ball, it was so funny.  My brother is so cute and he's getting so grown up! Maybe if I get the chance I'm going to buy more storage containers (smaller) and teach him how to organize and buy more big legos and stuff.  He seems to be mature enough to build projects properly now which I am thrilled about.  Hopefully it'll be a lot easier to play! cars, legos, oh joy.  At least the kids at the park like to play with him (maybe more for the like kazillion hotwheel cars he brings...).  But hey, he's learning and he's growing up.

Ah, Amy's growing up.  She is sweet. watching her grow up has been great even if she can has an attitude sometimes but she's a simple enough girl.  She doesn't just wantwantwant.  She didn't really want gifts and a party but she was super polite and showed that she really appreciate gifts and the time we spent with her.

It's been a good day.  I am tired but I am hoping I get a lot done tomorrow.  Mom is gonna do errands so I'm gonna be home w/ Luke.  Should be amusing. I need to clean so badly. so badly.

Numb?

My leg is still numb from sampling. Not nearly as bad, but still annoying.
Helped a Little at Josh's parents' new house.  I didn't feel all That useful. Oh well. I feel productive recently altho I mostly feel like I'm working, sleeping, and then rewinding after work for a bit before passing out.

I sorta wish life was more exciting.  I realize I can make it more exciting myself.  I figure hanging out with people helps.  I see Fei tomorrow and Lisa's been asking me where I've been so I'll visit her sometime soon.  Maybe Josh will want to do something at some point but who knows.  He's sick right now so I don't expect he'll really care about it.  Maybe he'll eventually show interest.

I'm looking forward to some sunshine :)

BabyShad

got to Pearson about 10 minutes before 8pm. Then we headed out to the ERC. Claire and I ended up in the same canoe as the new REU student in a diff lab, Alex. It was sorta fun, tho tiring and gross. The usual larval fish stuff....net in water, limit where baby fish can go, take cups, scoop em up, put em in big bin that gets transported to mesocosms to get sorted and distributed, etc...hundreds and hundreds of fishies.  We got over half of the stuff done tonight which is amazing.  It was amusing for the most part.  Claire and I were pretty sarcastic towards Alex but he was just over the top sometimes.  Though he was a gentleman in the sense that he'd always say yes ma'am and stuff he sure swore a lot and liked to talk about ex girlfriends and drinking and he's not even 21 yet. Oh well. I am glad to have gotten to work with Claire.  My clothes were disgusting and I felt so gross....thankfully I got to take the truck back to Pearson so Claire and I could leave early...at 2:30am.  That's early? Yeah. I wonder if the others are back to Pearson now.  Drove Claire home. Anyway. my legs are all crampy and sore from the canoe and the awkward positions for scooping fish.  7 hours later I am clean and happy about that.  I am pretty worn out but at least I made some money.  Tomorrow I will probably work some in the afternoon and then head over to Josh's parents to help out with their new house.  I'm tired. I don't want to sleep yet either though...waiting for hair to dry.

This better be worth it

Sometimes I want to quit Telehawks.  But, that would be problematic because then I'd be job-less and have no money come in at all...So Although Telehawks doesn't pay much due to insufficient hours, I feel like it is good for me to stay even if I don't really like the job at all.  You would think the job sounds easy cus it's just talking on the phone, but it is mostly tedious and I don't like nagging people--which is what it feels like.  Maybe, it'll help me develop more skills for confrontation.

Otherwise it has been a pretty good day. Attempted to clean some of my room.  It is still atrocious because I have nowhere to put stuff right now. Apartment search has been tedious because a lot of places are either unavailable or they don't know what'll be open...etc.

Hm, I was happy that Josh called yesterday though.  I didn't expect an apology because I didn't think he was being all that cold this weekend towards me...I guess something was up, but really, I thought that was just sorta normal, It wasn't anything out of the ordinary to me and I guess I was getting used to it for a while.  I didn't expect much but it did mean a lot that he thought about it.  nicotine withdrawals = irritatability.  I can't say I'm a fan of the smoking but what is there really to do? I'm pretty sure most people are aware that I don't like smoke because I don't smoke.  But, you can't make people do things unless they want to.  I don't approve but I do appreciate the somewhat open-ness about it.  Because, I'd rather know.  I don't like stuff like that being kept from me.  But I also know that I can't expect to know everything and I guess I just have to trust about stuff.  If he wants to do things differently, that is his call.  I'm not going to push but I am not going to approve.  If it gets to the point that what I think about stuff doesn't matter at all about anything...well, I guess figure it out then.  Right now, at least I know that he somewhat cares.  I appreciate the effort.  It's not my place to judge but all I can do is just prioritize my own values and figure out what fits and what doesn't.

Tomorrow night I get to go night sampling...oh goody?...yeah...please don't rain on me. Then I'll be cold, sleep deprived AND wet.

A beautiful wedding

I am exhausted...not from over exertion...but from so much sitting...

haha.

Friday at around 3pm we headed to Indiana where his grandparents are, met them, had dinner at Montana Mike's...eventually passed out. Saturday morning we headed to the place in Illinois by the wedding, then went to 2 of the 3 wineries...windy roads...yummy wine, and delicious bread at the bluesky winery and amazing wine slushy at the second one. Um...yeah, had dinner, went to a picnic, met more family, played cornhole (was pretty good ;)) and just enjoyed my evening even though it was hot.  Sunday was the wedding and it was beautiful. really hot outside and sweaty so the photos are probably gross but the food was good and it was a good time in general. Fav wine there: Chambourcin Blush. tastes like strawberries. yum. Then drove back to his grandparents house...went through a horrendous storm with lightning and wind...had to exit and park at some parking lot for a while and even then there was like 2 inches of water. Once we got to his grandparents house it wasn't long before I passed out again...and today...more sitting in the van. I am now home but I am glad to be home for the most part apart from my mom already getting on my case and being annoyed with me.  But that is normal I guess.  Just something I have to put up with for the rest of summer.

He has a really nice family and I especially enjoyed his aunt Cindy.  Now, she's a funny woman...loves her wine, and has a great sense of humor. 

It reminds me that I do wish my parents were more supportive of me in general, beyond financial support because they're really not that involved because I'm supposed to be independent but the consequences are annoying.  I feel like if I am not perfect, or if I make little mistakes, I either fail at life or am stupid.  I am tired of being barked at, the pressure, the stress...and I cannot wait to be financially independent. I love them dearly but I am emotionally worn out when I am home and am always stressed about whether or not I am doing things right because I hate being yelled at.

I wasn't ready for reality again.  Called apartments, two of the agencies want me to call back in July and I have yet to hear back from the other two. I am hoping to see places in 2 weekends...but we'll see.

This is gonna be some week..a lot of night shifts. Goody.

I'm tired.

gift-check!

Eh, I KNEW it was going to rain this morning but they had us go to the ERC anyway....after like 15 minutes of scrubbing tubs...it rained and we went back to Pearson where I counted samples. Then I called Josh up and bribed him away from his work with food to get lunch and go to Kenwood. It took some time before we eventually found a gift for his cousin's wedding.  I don't think he enjoyed himself too much walking around and I was sorta tired but gift has been bought.  Afterwards, he had to leave and I needed to head home for laundry and stuff...bought gift bag, card, and tissue paper from Kroger on the way home and now everything is done! they just have to be signed now.

Now, just finish laundry, pack, and plan tomorrow's timing. Still not sure if we're going to just go directly there and back or go there and then drive half an hour to stay at Jennie's...if it's half an hour I feel like we might as well come home. We'll see.

Then it'll be wedding time. I do like meeting new people but I know it'll be A LOT of family members.  I know who a lot of them are by name and maybe a picture but only a few in person.  Hopefully his grandfather does not dislike me.  If he is indifferent then fine, but it would be a bummer if I was disliked. From what I've heard he has racist tendencies and as it is I may be out of place but that's OK by me.  That doesn't really make me feel awkward.  But, it is somewhat important that I am at least not disliked because I know Josh respects him so much and his grandfather means so much to him.  Not that if he dislikes me I'll dislike myself...no, no, no, that won't happen but I guess it is natural to want to try to get to know the people the person you care so much about care about (there is probably a better way to put that).  I can't say I know my extended family that well because...I never see them, so this whole thing is mildly unfamiliar to me.  At least I like meeting new people.

I am looking forward to the wedding for multiple reasons.  I do want to get out of Oxford, weddings are pretty, I enjoy meeting new people, Josh's family seems really nice and I'd like to get to know them and get a feel for family-life? So many people are getting engaged, married, and having children lately. It is crazy. I am very happy for them all.  I still feel too young for that but I know that someday I'd love to have a family, but that's a someday.  For now, I have a LOT, A LOT of growing up to do...I have so much to yet learn and figure out.

I'm gonna just try to relax...tomorrow morning's gonna be tiring...so I'll want to get stuff ready tonight.

B&W

Woke up at 6:30am. Left in about an hour to Pearson. Left for ERC w/ Maggie to meet with the others.  It was fun having her as a painting and bin-scrubbing buddy. haha. Painted the huge mesocosms with two coats of black paint.  I am surprised we didn't get covered but I forgot to clean off the bottom of my feet with paint thinner so they're spotty...Then we scrubbed plastic bins that were covered with disgusting green algae/mold...then we had to turn the mesocosms somehow to align with the pipes... My arms are a tad sore.

More calling tonight, and then painting the mesocosms white tomorrow.  I really hope it doesn't get too difficult after that :P.

P.S. I know it is just awful that I watch the Bachelorette this season but the girl seems really sweet, the guys aren't very good picks but it's getting better AND JOSHUA RADIN will be on next week's episode singing and that makes me happy!

Why Monday?

Monday evening calling was very discouraging. Ugh. I can't wait for Wednesday because even though I have to go out into the field, at least I'll have good company and nobody will be so difficult with me. Sometimes I cannot stand my job, but it's money and even if I have trouble getting pledges, at least I am getting paid and at least I am trying and learning. Sigh. I appreciate my future job so much and I don't even have it yet. Thank you, Telehawks.

Time for some QUICK vegetation because I have to wake up at by 7am. Goody. My room is a mess but even though it's driving me crazy I am too lazy and I just feel cranky. I am in the mood to shop but I can't find anything I like and I don't currently have the funds. Maybe a good movie or a cheesy show, sounds like a great idea right now.  I just need to get away from the world right now, for just a couple hours...I have spent hours trying to build rapport and get funds...time for me-time.

Cute or too much?

This was on yahoo!shine and as sweet as the gesture is, it's a little overwhelming and I'm not sure if that song is the greatest choice but I applaud him for his efforts and that is such an awesome thing to do, to totally put yourself out there, on the line, in front of the world. she's one special girl :)

I am very lucky

it's been a great day.  The bathing suit that arrived is a tad small.  Turns out they don't cover enough of my boobs. Well, great, I didn't need that bathing suit this week anyway.  Called VS to for the exchange transaction and am gonna stop by UPS tomorrow morning before work to mail it back as they mail the new size to me.  I am excited for its arrival! Although I am not a fan of not having it with me lol. Attached? eh, maybe, more excited than anything else.

Got to be a lazy bum.  Watched "Jersey Girl" on hulu w/ Allie H.  I wasn't expecting much out of it but we both enjoyed it a lot, it was so cute! even if sometimes I wanted to hit her cus she was so crazy.  Sometimes you just have to go out and get what you want, even if you make a fool out of yourself because sometimes that's just what it takes.

Luke was very cute today.  I need to find more time to spend with him.

Work was alright, the evaluation was OK, I still have stuff to work on.  I brought in a lot of money today for Miami so that was successful.  I managed to whack my knee against the bottom metal part of the desk on my already scabby knee and that hurt A LOT.  I am so glad that during that nobody picked up the phone cus I was in no state to talk. haha, two of the people I called were watching sports.  One old lady was watching the Hawks hockey game so I was ok with letting her watch that to call her back again, and an old man was watching the Boston basketball game.  Man, you can tell they were into it, it was so loud in the background and they were so excited! don't mess with them and their sports.

Freaked out because Lisa sent me a text about an accident she had that cut off the tip of her finger.  Rushed over there after work to make sure it wasn't as bad as I thought.  It's OK.  Good thing that for humans the tip of the finger (thus far) is the only part of our bodies that can regenerate totally even if it takes forever.  Hopefully enough of her finger is left to regenerate.  GOOD thing she didn't cut off a bone and that her daddy's a doctor and was at hand while she was home-home. I really love talking to her. I feel so much like myself around her and I like who I am around her a lot.  She and I are on the same wavelength about a lot of things and we just understand each other.  Convenient she lives 2 floors above Josh because afterwards I stopped by because I had been wanting to hang out.

Hopefully his strawberry wine turns out...if not, at least we had a lot of fun picking strawberries?

He's the best.  Even though sometimes I get paranoid that he doesn't want to talk to me or see me for some reason I always remind myself that that is just crazy thinking and usually I am not disappointed.  I am very happy with tonight and I was very happy to spend some quality time with him tonight, best way to end such a day.  It's been a great day.  Sometimes life just turns out.  That's what I'm hoping in terms of work this week...I normally don't want to go to Telehawks but I need money and lab work? this week = FIELDWORK really early in the mornings...manual labor? oh goody! minimum wage for it? oh boy...

I can't wait for THURSDAY! BENNY BENASSI IN CBUS WITH BESTIES (Josh, Jennie, Kait) and a bunch of other people. FRIDAY-MONDAY wedding stuff for Josh's cousin. There'll be a lot of family there...this'll be somethin...

SATC2 and Real Life

Ashley ended up in the hospital earlier so didn't feel well enough to come to the movie (understandable) and Margaret never picked up.  At least Ali and I enjoyed the movie.

The movie was fun, funny, and super colorful.  The clothes were outrageous and so was a lot of the plot but I did get a lot out of it.

Some Lessons:

It is so, so, so easy to get caught up in expectations of relationships and to be so paranoid about what is to come once you settle into a routine.  Just because it's a routine it does not mean the relationship is boring and the more one thinks that it is, the more it probably ends up being so.  But it is good to keep up the "sparkle" and to just let loose.

It is also very easy to look back on the past and fall back onto it.  Sometimes your past finds you and then what? be careful and don't play with fire, that's what.

Don't be an idiot and leave your passport somewhere.

Whenever you travel, learn what is appropriate to do there, or you could end up in jail.

Don't assume your partner is doing something horrible.  They are also probably more understanding than you give them credit to be.

People can't read your minds.

Any relationship, esp. marriage, is work.  Kids are exhausting and it is Ok to freak out sometimes.  Good thing there are friends to help.

It is good to have time apart and to find who you are again and just be yourself, come back into it refreshed afterwards.

Dressing up is fun, even if you're not leaving the house.  It's nice to feel special, but sometimes it is easy to forget that we are still special even if we don't feel it.

It is SO GOOD to have girlfriends.  Jennie, girl, I don't know what I'd do without you. Really. We need to keep each other sane. Great friends.

There are many friends that come and go, some ok, some good, and some great.  The great ones I will go out of my way to see and keep in touch with.  But, my friendship and relationships with people is my choice. Everybody has different experiences.  There are a lot of people I wish I could see and hang out with more, but I only have so much time and energy, and some take more priority than others to me because some have been better friends to me than others.  That's just how it is.  The great ones let me be myself and I feel comfortable enough to do so.  They make me feel good about myself and make me want them to feel good too.  Can't be friends with everybody and sometimes just gotta let go.

benny benassi > long week

I'm taking it easy today, just playing with Luke, finishing up some busywork, apartment searching, and then SITC2 with girls. Tomorrow? maybe taking another breather before work in the evening. On top of telehawks I get to work 8am-12pm Monday thru Thursday out in the field at the ERC. Sigh...it's gonna be gross, I'm going to smell, and my arms are gonna kill from the labor, haha. BUT, then Benny Benassi is Thursday night! which is something to look forward to for sure! and then Friday-Monday is wedding time! This is going to be a busy two weeks, then I need to schedule times to visit apartments! eeeeh! I'm already tired for no reason. haha.

Blind Lemon

Well, first off, work was SO LONG. I love the people but sometimes it is just overwhelming! especially when I end up with a sample that makes me nauseous. Daphnia ambigua, I hate you sometimes.
Being hungry, nauseous, and headachey makes me angry and moody.

Picked up sticks of butter for Lisa's cupcake stuff, chitchatted, played with Binks, and then went downstairs to Josh's apartment.  I kept myself busy and useful for a while, I think it helped deal with my dizziness and stuff from work, but then I continued to feel sick which made me more upset.  Couldn't find Dramamine earlier on my trip to Kroger to get butter and then got annoyed walking around with a headache and feeling nauseous so I left. I should get some this weekend in anticipation for this coming week at work. Ate half a fiber one bar which helped.

Then we went to the Blind Lemon at Mt. Adams. It was nice. I like Mt. Adams a lot. Strawberry Coladas = new favorite drink. yumyum.

I had fun. I really am actually pretty lucky, it's just that sometimes I forget and then have a moment of weakness and doubt. I have yet to learn more about myself.

I'm hoping to take up Tennis again.  Being active 1) releases endorphins and makes me happy, 2) calms me down, 3) provides for the exercise I need. Then, maybe hit the pool afterwards.  Those two sound really good together, and so does a burger. err...haha.

overall good day

Work was alright, very tedious and random, microscopes and formulin made me nauseous though. I still have a headache.

Then went to wal-mart for errands, then went to Ali's for dinner and to watch Fame. Fame was OK.  I'm not a big musical sort of person but this wasn't really a musical, it was sort of like Step-Up, except Step-Up had more eye-candy.  It was enjoyable enough and the birthday cake Ian made for Ali was delicious.  I'm glad she's happy and that he dotes on her so much.  It's cute how he calls her regularly.  She deserves it and it makes her happy.

I have no idea what to do tomorrow after work. My brain is so exhausted.  I'm either staring at a microscope, or persuading people to give money.  I'm just really tired.  Sometimes I just have little energy left and the pressure to find something fun to do just makes me anxious sometimes because what if I just want to be lazy for a bit?

I'm just tired. But, it's been a pretty good day, just paying for it with this headache. Eh, you know, I wish I was happier more often. When I'm tired it's just Blah, and then I don't know what I have to look forward to sometimes.  I'm using up all my energy and I'm not sure what I'm getting in return, apart from some money, and some conversation.

step 1 of growing up

applied for credit card.

step 2? find an apartment. yahyah! I've narrowed the list down more and in the near future will call and set up appointments for viewing the spaces! :)

Still gimpy but thankfully Allie B.'s friend is volunteering on Tuesdays so I had her sample with me out on the lake.  We were stuck out there for a while cus the engine wouldn't start but hey, we finally got back.

Bought a new bathing suit online.  Bandeau will be good for sunbathing and the pool in general.  I am not a fan of these tan lines at all! haha. And, it's adding to my color palette -- green. Looking forward to the arrival.

Things I need to do asap...more pool, more sun, more exercise. Summer!

Tired. I am not looking forward to work in the near future. Hey, bringing in some money. Some.

cell phones

a great step for communication with potential consequences. they are personal devices and there are so many transactions that can be made discretely. sometimes I wish they didn't exist because they make it too easy to keep things covered. but that's when it cones down to the people themselves , trusting they are not taking advantage of the power technology has of covering tracks.

a lot of celebs seem to have scadals uncovered thru cell phones and that doesn't mean other people haven't figured it out too and that's frustrating. cell phones have their flaws but I think we just have to be smarter than the phone and sometimes we are.

trust is not an easy thing even when something is tellig you not to. maybe it isn't a big deal, sometimes details have to be overlooked or we'd be hung up on too much negativity.