This better be worth it

Sometimes I want to quit Telehawks.  But, that would be problematic because then I'd be job-less and have no money come in at all...So Although Telehawks doesn't pay much due to insufficient hours, I feel like it is good for me to stay even if I don't really like the job at all.  You would think the job sounds easy cus it's just talking on the phone, but it is mostly tedious and I don't like nagging people--which is what it feels like.  Maybe, it'll help me develop more skills for confrontation.

Otherwise it has been a pretty good day. Attempted to clean some of my room.  It is still atrocious because I have nowhere to put stuff right now. Apartment search has been tedious because a lot of places are either unavailable or they don't know what'll be open...etc.

Hm, I was happy that Josh called yesterday though.  I didn't expect an apology because I didn't think he was being all that cold this weekend towards me...I guess something was up, but really, I thought that was just sorta normal, It wasn't anything out of the ordinary to me and I guess I was getting used to it for a while.  I didn't expect much but it did mean a lot that he thought about it.  nicotine withdrawals = irritatability.  I can't say I'm a fan of the smoking but what is there really to do? I'm pretty sure most people are aware that I don't like smoke because I don't smoke.  But, you can't make people do things unless they want to.  I don't approve but I do appreciate the somewhat open-ness about it.  Because, I'd rather know.  I don't like stuff like that being kept from me.  But I also know that I can't expect to know everything and I guess I just have to trust about stuff.  If he wants to do things differently, that is his call.  I'm not going to push but I am not going to approve.  If it gets to the point that what I think about stuff doesn't matter at all about anything...well, I guess figure it out then.  Right now, at least I know that he somewhat cares.  I appreciate the effort.  It's not my place to judge but all I can do is just prioritize my own values and figure out what fits and what doesn't.

Tomorrow night I get to go night sampling...oh goody?...yeah...please don't rain on me. Then I'll be cold, sleep deprived AND wet.