Silence

Venting.

Apparently I am 1) a waste, 2) will never find a job, 3) a slacker, 4) lazy, 5) selfish, 6) useless, 7) never do anything right, 8) (insert a whole list of things I don't do that I should do), 9) do not take any sort of initiative, 10) only know how to play, 11) have no skills to find a job, 12) probably won't get into grad school, 13) my brother's welfare is of none of my concern and my participation is of no use, 14) i need to learn how to take care of myself and that what happens to me no longer matters, etc.

I said nothing during all of it. I am apparently the most unproductive person ever and that my saying "I am doing homework while I am in my room" is a lie because I'm not just that type of person that would be doing homework like that. Great. Let's add another thing to my list, that I am a liar.

Then they wonder why I don't want to come home.

Then again, it's not like they go out of their way to help with opportunities as they think. I'm sorta stuck in one place and there's only so much I can do. Gotta love parentals, especially mothers.

Back to silence.

EDIT: feeling much better now. More venting than anything else and I figure people don't mean the unpleasant things all the time. But, I can't help but think that my parents don't think I'll make it into certain schools. Oh well, I can try.