Lull

This helps me feel a little better. A lot of things frustrating me right now, esp. the fumes at work and not being able to work much at all. Oh well. That, and the usual annoyances like not getting stuff done, certain people and such as well. But, talking to Joce was really good. Timing was wonderful and a pleasant surprise. There are some things most people I know wouldn't understand, but she gets it, and I am grateful to have her as a friend. She's so down to earth and understanding. I feel like I can tell her everything and we did share a lot today and I'm glad there are things that she knows now and that she's the type of friend that I can talk to for hours yet we can sit in silence and not feel awkward. I guess I'm thinking about it now because I really appreciate certain people at certain times. ...tired of feeling so frustrated and tired all the time. It's been quite an "emotional" day. Frustration, lots of laughter, tears for no specific reason, awkwardness, etc.

It's sorta like a steppingstone in a friendship or relationship when you get to the point that you know you can tell them anything and can tell them things nobody else really knows. I love my friends.

I do hope I feel better soon though, because I don't enjoy feeling like this. I feel like this summer is too productive and I mean there have been some really fun and enjoyable parts but I don't feel like I've gotten a legit break yet. Maybe someday. I really hope hard work pays off or I'm in for a lot of disappointment and exhaustion. But, I suppose if I don't expect much I'll enjoy more? I really hope it does not come to that. I know I am probably overreacting about how things are going in general, but sometimes that's just how it feels. Either way, I don't think I have a problem coping with stress for the most part...sorta used to dealing with my feelings on my own to figure it out. Usually it works out. I'm just tired of a lot of things right now. maybe that's my que to go to sleep.

Here's to hoping for better times.