beautiful day

I did not have much trouble waking up this morning. It is so beautiful outside and I was a little anxious because today is the LAST day of classes of my whole undergraduate...years. I did put a little effort into my outfit today and I felt it is very different from the first thing I wore to class freshman year. Less pastel and more "professional"? I have changed so much over the years yet haven't changed at all. I am still here but hopefully a better version of myself. I love Miami and I will miss going here very much but I am hoping that it is not just because of the people I have been surrounded by but because how I am in life and respond to life...and how I just take life in. I hope this will come with me to Columbus and that those two years will be as good as these past four.

Steph and I walked to our last Biochem class together this morning. It went by quickly enough and afterwards we went to Shriver for breakfast (second breakfast for me). She says the look on my face was indescribable. That is about how I felt at the time. I had no idea how I felt...if anything I was just confused and blank at the same time. I am almost done-done. No more classes...Wow.

After class I bumped into Laura M. and we talked for like an hour, just catching up. I enjoy talking to her even though I never see her. I hope to see more of her this summer and I know she'll be at Miami for grad school for another two years (Mech. Eng.).

Then I dilly dallied a bit, changed, and headed out the door towards the Rec. Then I bumped into Iori and there went another good half hour. It was good conversation...talked about fieldwork, school, future, people...good conversation.

I really love my time at Miami. There have been times that I feel like I hated but at the same time, it's brought me to where I am now and I feel like I've got a good deal going for me right now.

I have met some amazing people and I have great people in my life. I don't want to take any of it for granted and I hope to continue good relationships with them because they have proved to be true friends.

I did finally work out though! 40 min of cardio felt really good. I can mostly feel it in my calves though, but at least I feel it somewhere! I just have to keep this up. So it's been like 4 times this week or something? yay.

So I did really well on my zoo lab final after all but that class is still going to be borderline as far as grades go. Even to just barely get a B I need to get a B on the final. I can tell you that won't be easy because she seriously is confusing on her exams and it is hard to do well at all.

Biochem? Yeah, I need to get a B to feel safe in that class too.

OMG and Sociology? I never thought a soc class would ever be on the border like this either. Seriously. It's a HUMANITIES class, I've only got like one non A+ in these things ever...and just trying to get a B has been a lot of effort? This does not make sense at all!

It is hard to find the motivation to really study and get ready for stuff right now. I have to tell myself that my final grades and final GPA is not going to affect my likelihood of finding a job right now. The only thing it affects is me because I want to do well for myself but at the same time I know I am trying hard and that there is a lot more to life than your GPA. You could be a genius and just fail at life...and isn't life important? we only have one...and we have multiple chances at a GPA...

I need a shower. Grilling out for dinner with friends tonight! I hope the rest of the day is as good as it has been so far.