It's been a pretty good day. Worked a full day in the lab counting Daphnia depth profile samples...the usual. Hiked w Josh and had dinner with his family. Stayed there really late. Didn't get to watch the movie, but that's OK. There are other opportunities. I find that if I stay immobile and inactive for too long it's hard to come back from that, especially since I don't really have any mental motivation to get myself to do much after a certain point as my mental capacities have been hindered by work. It's not like my jobs are difficult, its just sometimes straining on the brain. At one, it's a lot of counting, measuring, and focusing on small moving objects for hours without moving. At the other, it's a bit on edge trying to prepare myself for any situation that comes up and thinking on my toes, or seat, rather, for hours. I can't really move my body around to keep active so I don't get too worn out from just my brain moving around so by the end I just get tired and sore from sitting still so long. I've tried fidgeting and that helps some, but not enough. I've been trying to deal with my shoulders with self-massaging but that only helps a little. It's just so draining spending all my time pleasing others and before long I feel like I've spent it all on everybody else. Even though I know it sucks getting calls like those they should at least know that we're trying our best to please them and do our job. Maybe I should spend some of that energy on myself, haha. I am hoping that more sleep this weekend will help. More likely than not it's not going to turn out as expected. Plans often don't. Solution? stop expecting, haha.
But, I'm not unhappy or anything right now, just worn out and need something refreshing because I am feeling uninspired and slow.
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