Worth

How is the worth of an individual determined? by what they feel about themselves? in comparison to others? by what others value in you? All? It is very complicated or does it even matter?

I believe I am worth something.

I hope I have worth to others as a person. of character though, not materially.

Job 1 done, lunch done,stuff, dinner, then job 2. I feel like I need more because they are short term and just minimally part time. I need to make money. I would like to be able to afford life.

I need to control my spending more. Whatever financial problems that come up I know I am responsible for. It is my fault no matter how my mind may want to pin it on other circumstances I know it is my own responsibility and consequences come back to me. I just need to be strong and keep my priorities straight and take care of myself because somebody has to, right? I hope I make it because I feel like my jobs are just going to be about catering to others and I hope I don't lose myself because I've got to be able to support myself and my sanity. When I am tired I know I'm going to feel really needy and will just want comfort. I do not expect to have it relieved but I do think I can do it...hopefully without going crazy.

Everybody's got their own issues and I don't expect anybody to have to deal with mine because I know they're my problems but they are only problems if I let them be so...I am going to need to learn how to deal with the things that come up and not let myself get down :). I know I can do it, I just have to do it!

Hm, interview rescheduled for Friday, on my birthday, for Job #3. I hope I get the job! money is useful...and I need to save.